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Setiap pencobaan yang kita alami PASTILAH tidak akan melebihi kekuatan kita.
Dan Allah tidak hanya mengijinkan itu terjadi, namun DIA juga MEMBERI
JALAN KELUAR sehingga kita dapat menanggungnya.

Pilihan

Gw lagi terbawa suasana seorang teman yang lagi ngerasa sedihhhhh banget, hmmm being betrayed by somebody we love kayaknya memang sakiiittt bgt ya. Jangankan dia, gw aja ga abis pikir kok bisa yaa....Tapi, apapun itu cheer up dear...stop blame yourself, you deserve something and someone much better than him.

Sori kalo gw cuma bisa ber-theory, dan bilang sebaiknya kamu begini, jangan begitu dll, karena gw gak tau gimana rasa sakit yang sebenarnya kamu rasain. I just wish I were there with you now. Gw cuma pengen bisa bantu meringankan or menghibur kamu.

Tapi apapun itu, percayalah kita menjalani hidup dengan pilihan. Gw nggak setuju kalo dia bilang (yang mungkin terlalu despreate nya..) bahwa sekarang dia cuma mengikuti alur hidupnya sekarang.

Setiap hari sejak bangun tidur kita udah dihadapkan pada pilihan-pilihan, how will we start our day? Should I thank to God for my new day or just regret every bad thing happened yesterday. Untuk tetap larut dalam kesedihan or forget about the past, juga suatu pilihan.

Halah...ucapan ini sekaligus menegur gw juga. Apakah gw sudah bersyukur buat hari ini dan membuat pilihan, bagaimana aku harus menjalani hidup hari ini?

So, to my dear friend, I just pray that you will find the way to choose the best for you and become better.

Renungan hari ini : ketika kita merasa Tuhan menutup pintu yang satu, Dia nggak pernah lupa untuk membuka pintu yang lainnya buat kita.

Woman's power

I am not telling you about Cleopatra or other powerful woman in history.

It's real and up to date, a woman who I can see everyday. Indeed she is beautiful and she almost takes control of a man's life. Not so young, could be too young for him, ha...ha..ha...They are not my family neither friends, though they live surround us.

Let's say the woman is A, the man is B, just like in math. I just know B since 2 years ago. Many people know him and respected him, as he is a boss of an organization, nice and helpful too. But that was long ...long time ago. Now something has changed his mind, I guess.

Is it L.O.V.E? Probably yes. But 4.000€ /month shouldn't be ignored by a woman. I don't really care about the way people live. They are both available. Nothing special and strange, even B is more than 20 years older than A. Living together without married? Na und? Hey, we are in Europe man, no need to discuss about it here. Even some Indonesians do it (for reasons I never understand).

I have no problem with them. They are nice to me. Although the 1st time A came, she brought a bit trouble for us. But no one listen to her and that happened not so long, because then she left and started her "new life" with B.

It becomes a sad story if we think about an innocent 3-year-old girl. How do I feel when she asked you not to leave her alone, coz her mom is going with B. I wonder what was in her mind when she said “they will never come back” for her. How will she- in her very young age- understand about her mom's behavior? She still remember her dad, although she knows her mom sleeps with other man. I wonder how this will influence her future.

A keep brings problems here and there. Sttt....even B fired one of his staff just because A. Oh man...is he so stupid to realize maybe his carrier will be destroy because of this woman?

Many people said their "love" will not last forever. In the past, B had some women, and none of them stays more than 5 months. Let's wait and see, still they have 3 months to prove something.

I wonder if B also will discharge his Secretary, another strong woman who always surrounds him. If it happens, my 2 thumbs for A. Because then she really can control her man.

Btw, B got the same number euro as a Prof in Gent, with a very big lab, at least 20 PhD students and 3 post docs pro year. Fyi, in 2005 the workaholic Prof already got one of the Flemish-Nobel-prizes for his research and technical applications in environmental technology. And of course, I am still (a bit) proud that I was one of his students :-) for 1 year during my thesis.

Instead of showing their picture, I better put my Prof's, a little reminder about him, his lab and encouragement to keep trying to find something new.

And maybe it is a good reminder for me too, to try another chance in research. Do I ask to much God?

Old friends & friendster

I did found some of my long-lost contact friends in friendster, and wanted to add them since long time ago. But the feeling that they might not recall me anymore, makes me ignored the idea to add them to my list. I just tried to invited some of my old friends to be my fs-friend last week.

OMG, surprised... most still recall me, even I had no contact with many of them for the last 15 years. Just regret my stupidity, why didn't I invite them since ages.

Niwei, I am so.... so happy my dear friends, to know how you are doing now. Amazing, though so many years gone, hope never any friends will gone. No matter you are with your own family or still single fighter :-) now, hope you all be blessed and happy. Let's try to keep in touch each other from now on.

I remember a very nice song by Michael & Deborah Smith, my favorite song since ages about friendship. Although it is not a famous song, but always deeply remind me of friendship.

Friends

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not to long to live as friends

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

Have a nice Monday my friends..hmm it is.. Monday.

While I was ill

There was a time when I realize how worth is a health. Started to catched a cold last Friday, it was getting worse and followed by fever. Not really remember when did I have been exposed to the viruses, and what's going on with my body's defences. A bit story about cold, it is not easy to catch a cold, because our body immune defenses usually fight off these viruses. our first line of defence is the layer of mucus lining your nose. Unfortunately central heating can dry this, making it less efficient at preventing infections pass through.

Hey, when did the first time I became familiar with this mucus term? Hmm...it was when I was in "Human Toxicology" class, one of the thoughest course in my first year in Environmental sanitation. It was the time when I have to put all the details of human biology sistems part in my mind. The course or maybe the Prof. Mark Van de... he..he...makes everybody in my class had a long night mare. Well, he is good, even too good to be true in giving lectures. Lecturing a-four-hour-class a week and ended with a 30-45 minutes movie about the human toxic cases around the world. He kept high spiritly talking even we were deadly sleepy. Some students even just went home while he was talking. What a behave !!

From the union carbide Plant explosion in Bophal killed about 5 thousands people in India, to the dangerous furniture with formaldehyde inside which still used in the caravan. From tragedies in poorest contries to some cases in the modern western wold. His story even made some of us 'take a vow' not to eat mushroom anymore, ha..ha...

At the end we had to paid for our indolent behavior. Just 2 weeks before the exam, he gave a rehearshal class, as he promised that he would give clues from which parts of his two 200-pages notes that would came to exam. He gave a 2-pages list, and OMG that's all the subtitles of his notes, so ...no choices, WE HAD TO STUDY ALL OF THEM !! Just look at the picture, it was taken during coffee time on that rehearshal class.

Thank's God I passed that nightmare in the 1st exam session, with 45 minutes writing and 1.5 hours oral test. But for some others he said, see you in September...means... failed and they had to do 2nd exam. Although our class had been devided into 2 groups (2 days), still he needed the whole day and evening to questioned the students. From 8 am to 11.30 pm!! What an exams.

Fyi, he is always the 2nd most important person in CES program, and responsible to choose vlir scholars in our program. So, I should thanks to him for he had choosing me as one of the vlir scholars. But that's not only the reason I appreciate him. But actually we (for sure...this is not just me) knew that he is a very good Prof, and just wanted to share all of his knowledge to his students.

I wish I have his spirit and share my knowledges to my students in a better way as a devotional to science and technology. Wow, it is just ITB's motto; for science and technology.

By the way, this time cold virus won and destroy my weekend, and my hubby had to be (again) took care of me so much. So sorry dear, next weeked will be much better I hope...

Ash Wednesday

Last Wednesday, February 21, is an Ash Wednesday (Aschermittwoch) which was the first day of Lent and occurs forty-six days before Easter. It comes the day after Shrove Tuesday or Mardi Gras (fat Tuesday or Fastendienstag), the last day of the Carneval season. The word "Carnival" is in fact derived from latin carne vale: "farewell, meat".

Beyound the word term business, what's so special about this day? The ashes, yes, is a reminder of our mortality. As a sentence mostly stated in the funeral ceremony "Remember, man, that you are dust, and unto dust you shall return."

And so begin a season of penitence which leads ultimately to the celebration of Easter joy. This is not a day of sadness, or a season that is morose, for it ends in Easter joy. It reminds us of that mortality and the fact, the simple fact, that we are sinners. We stand in need of the mercy of God; without the sacrifice of Christ on the cross there is no salvation, and we are counted as dead.

Thus, not only do a serious fasting, or abstinence (from meat), but more trying to have in reflexion, how close He is for me?

Heute beginnt meine Reise. Wie rüste ich mich für die kommenden 40 Tage? Mit wachen Augen, neuen Gedanken - und vor allem mit Zeit zum Nachdenken. Ich will mir jeden Tag zehn Minuten reservieren, in denen ich mich ganz bewusst frage: was brauche ich wirklich? Wie nahe bin ich Gott?

Bubye meat... till Easter..

Friendship

It's been quite some time that I miss Imel..my best friend ever. She is as a sister to me.

We knew each other in the middle of 2000. At that moment we were still in the 2nd-year of our Master study and as lecturer-to-be in Chemistry department in a small University.

Of course my hubby is the key of my staying in that university. But she did help me a lot, changed my view of being a lecturer in a totally 'new world' for me, Tanjungpura University. Well..actually, we helped each other to keep fighting and struggle as "strangers" in Pontianak. While I was preparing my marriage in '03, she was always there, and helped me facing problems here and there.

Unluckily (for her), then I just left that city for a while (2 years, huh...) and almost never contacted her. We do write each other, sometimes...but I guess she is so busy, hmm that will be good for her carrier and life, hopefully. For sure I am very happy for her, especially when I heard that she would get married last December. I hope she has a great life now.

I just pray that God bless u always my dear sist ...and of course, see u soon

PS : In fact it has been more than 2 years that I count on her about all the administration stuff during my stay here. Even I left our bank account book with her, ha..ha...sounds strange oder? Trustworthy is one of the most important thing in our friendship.I just trust her more than anybody there, and hope that she will stay the same. Is n't that wonderful?

New blog

Start creating a new blog...today.. just after my first Deutschunterricht prufung. Actually, blogging is not the first time for me, but schade...my other blog's password was just "missing" from my mind. Not to mentioned my brain is smaller now ehmm...

I hope this time it won't be that bad, thus I need to pushed my self to write frequently. After finally, me and my hubby already have our blog, Panjaitan's family which is mostly written by him. Unbelievable, hey, now he likes blogging, even he is the one who persuade me to create another blog by my own, ha..ha..ha...

Anyway, another blog will harmless, I think. Another reason is...
I need to keep writing in English before it totally kaputttt....

So, here I am...welcome to my blog.....tadaaaa...